I knew there would be memories, but I forgot the anniversaries.
After her husband died, I would call her on significant days. Of course I called on the day he died (December 4), but also their wedding anniversary (April 3), and his birthday (June 28).
The first couple of years - maybe few - I would say, "I was thinking of you today; how are you doing?" Later, I stop bringing it up but I would still call on those days and just let her talk.
After she was gone, the first time I saw one of those anniversaries (December 4th) my automatic response was an impulse to call. Of course, in a couple seconds, I realized there's no one to call.
And so it goes. I suppose there will be other anniversaries to add to those I've remembered so far and certainly other thoughts and memories.
I feel oddly detached, as though I'm an observer of someone else's life - not unfeeling, just detached.
Strange business when someone passes.
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